Tragedy & Humiliation in SSC

Ugh!  Humiliating!  I died to SPOUT!  Me, the original Spout-Evasion-Technique Ninja Master!  I looked like a noob!  Arrrgh!!!  Hehe… oh but it stung… dishonored my name… Lol~

Okay so… They’re not the friendliest guild, despite my instant rapport with their GM.  I’m talkin bout the one that invited me to SSC with them, whose officers are all retired military men. 

I was the only non-guilded member there the other night.  Now, in my old guild if we’d had a new guest with us on a raid, a whole bunch of us would’ve chatted up to the stranger and tried to make them feel comfortable, or at the very least politely responded to their comments.  This other guild… well I understand they’re a very serious guild, but I did feel kinda cowed by the cold silence my friendly little overtures were met with (in raid chat).  I got too intimidated to even slip a pun out there.  They were Quite Serious Indeed.

I made a couple of faux pas and only one really big mistake besides getting Spouted on… I had a brain fart and battle rezzed the best healer.  Unfortunately, this was during a trash pull.  I’m not sure what I was thinking, looking back on it… Well, 1. there were several dead at the time and 2. I never saw the Leotheras fight before and I had a confused impression that the trash & Leo were connected because as we were fighting the trash they were talking about Leo strats in a very ambiguous manner (ie., “As soon as those are dead be ready to pick up Leo”)… but I know this was my fault for not being as aware as I could’ve been.  And 3. It honestly didn’t matter in the end because by the time another battle rez was needed, the cooldown was finished.  I guess no one could’ve predicted that tho. 

Anyway, I got barked at pretty harshly by 2 of the officers: “NEVER use a battle rez unless you’re told to!” <– this was kind of unfair because during the Hydross, Tidewalker & Lurker fights I’d used them with excellent judgment without being told to, and a couple of other times when the best choice wasn’t clear I’d asked them for their preference.  There was also a lot of other commentary from other people, several painstakingly enunciated “You do not use battle rezzes during trash pulls” and variations of the same thing which I felt were kind of unnecessary.  I mean, it was a mistake & I apologized.  Over the night, I battle rezzed 9 times… that was the only time I messed up, and it was only because I saw the best healer go down in the middle of a difficult pull (that I mistakenly thought was connected to the boss fight).  It kind of sucked that the whole guild had to chime in at that one point, as if they hadn’t seen me exercise better judgment previously.  No one said anything to me at all before, but just that one time all those previously silent ppl just had to speak up… >.<  Not the way I would’ve treated a new guest raider if they messed up… *mumble mumble cut cut*  Whatever! 

Nevertheless, all in all besides the Misfortunate Spoutage & the Brez Incident, I think I acquitted myself pretty well.  I tend to dwell on my mistakes a lot (perhaps you’ve noticed), but honestly I think I did alright overall.  It’s clear that they have some very good quality healers, but I kept up with them okay & in the end inched my way up to 2nd on healing charts, 2nd lowest on overheals.  Their lead healer was this ridiculously awesome priest who’s really the only one I think I would have a hard time matching in terms of skill even if I did acquire equivalent gear… man of few words there, but I think he thought I did alright too.

The GM invited me to go with them to Hyjal tonight.  I said I’d love to, but went ahead & told him I wouldn’t be joining his guild, whereupon he kinda-sorta rescinded the invitation (said he’d “let me know”… I don’t expect to hear back from him =P).  I always knew that I wouldn’t join a guild just for progression, even if I am itching to raid.  I was tense & apprehensive during the whole raid with them, and certainly that Brez incident made me feel pretty crappy.  Plus, they have a princess chick that I think I would hate being guilded with.  Any girl who can condescendingly say to a much older officer, ”Sweetheart, you have no idea how much my repair bills are” is not someone I’m gonna be sisters of traveling pants with.  I’d like to raid with them again to up my performance, do even better & of course see Hyjal again, but it’s not the guild for me & I already know it, so no regrets either way.

Still can’t believe I got Spouted… it’s because he’d just come up & started facing just to my left instead of starting at the tank as usual!  Still, I could’ve avoided it if I’d been standing at my usual spot right at the outer edge, but I’d moved to get in range of someone to heal during the add phase…  Okay, no more dwelling.  =P  Grr…